What Could It Be?

Mixed emotions unfolding within my heart
With heartaches swaying underneath within
And breathe moving away beyond my grasp.
Wounds within denied therapy
I felt the beat of my heart again.
Much stronger and faster this time.
Leaving me as confused as a stranger who cometh from far
And once traveling a lonely road for a first time.
Stucked at the crossroads to decide which path to walk.

And today, like the stranger yesterday, here I am stucked among choices.
Wondering which one could be deceitful.
And whether my choice would be worthwhile tomorrow.
To decide if this feeling was real.
And to even believe if it isn't just a thrill
If my heart is really healthy then
What I feel is really big a deal
Yet I'm so scared
Though I'm not persuaded

In fast moving seconds,
Happiness engulfed me within.
As I'm convinced that it's true and real
At least this time
The joy I've always wanted is now within my reach
And my arms forever stretched out
to embrace more than I could ever embed.
Tell mama I'm out there
Making the right decision I couldn't make years back.
Her wish I'm fulfilling.
But wait, if this is all a dream,
nobody should wake me up.

©iDavid